Demise of a Body


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Recorded as one continuous live take during the winter in Burlington, ON
Additional percussion and dance performed live by Jordan Seal
Vocal introduction recorded by Rob before a quiet, modest altar on a dark evening in February

This record was written and performed as a ceremony in order to
preserve the memory of our mother

Though you fell, we bring you once more to rise


released October 16, 2014



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Track Name: (i)-(vi)

And now
it is a love
difficult to bear
I am
not a grieving child
but a worshipper


You are the sun, the grass
the force that connects the two
the cells that occupy my brain
night and day
thin membrane between here and there
you still are
I'll wait for you in the next clap of thunder
the breeze that carries
a million specks of pollen and dust
into my lungs
and out again

(iii- to accompany the instrumental)

Heavy above this palm
stays the weight of every moment
come to pass through
the flesh that now retires
melts and rests
time floats, suspends
squeezed from bones which purpose came to end
a vessel, author of, countless breaths
who wondered of creation behind the eyes
carried now between my hands


Will I see you again
when I shed my body
after all the time
which will surely pass
the space left behind me
the sheer expanse
the distance being put between us
makes me shake


I told her body
cold, goodbye
not her face, her eyes
never open to mine
she left knowing
what never left my lips
I believe
but cannot understand why
it's not enough
to keep her from my dreams
and say the words, over
every sleep
sounds we never sung
but knew all the same


It's been six months now
since I've seen you in the flesh
sometimes I'm kept up by
a violent reality
so we'll sync our breaths
and fall into silent conversation
a scratchy wool sweater
a spectral sunlit lawn
an empty car with a presence
a daughter, to illuminate remembrance
we've got our place to meet
we've never needed to speak
and I can live with that for now